Coincidences & Consequences

已经不记得上次和家人一起过年时的情景了，6年前的事了，太久了？还是期间经历的太多而对那种特殊的感觉感到淡薄了？应该是后者吧!

 

我很想念父母，知道他们这些年供我读书不容易，无时无刻不在挂念着我，每当过年合家团聚的时候我想也是他们最难熬的时候。。。为此，想尽可能的让父母不再为我多操心，尽可能报喜不报忧，我吃的苦跟父母为我的成长所付出的艰辛是不能相提并论的。。。。2007年很特别，因为我能回家过年了，使终于有机会了，太不易了，回想这些年来走过的路，如有一丝偏差，就绝对没有今天。还有3 天就能见到他们了，心里唯一的想法就是要陪他们过个年，其他的我别无所求。过年对我来说已经淡薄了，是一个概念，也许在未来的几年中都是遥不可及。。。是我自己选择了这条路，既然这样就要走下去。。。

 

 

新的开始。。。。。。。。。

还有几个小时，2006年就要成为历史了。回忆过去12个月内发生的事，真是充满了惊喜和忧伤。

 

记得在去年的这个时候还曾经告诉自己大三很重要，一定要取得优异的成绩从而在10月的工作申请中体现优势....事与愿违，本来很有信心处理好学习与做生意的，想法有时候还是有点不太切合实际。精力的不平均分配导致大三成绩的下降，这和自己自身的自控程度还是有关的。

 

辛辛苦苦准备的到澳大利亚布里斯班学习半年的签证资料被伦敦那边拒了，原因到现在我也觉得很不理解，难道就因为我在过去的2年内没参加雅思考试吗？太荒谬了。。。千载难逢的机会就这样葬送在了澳大利亚ignorance的手中。

 

迷恋internet，曾到了一度发狂的程度，回想起来，很是内疚，还好能够及时意识到问题的所在。希望自己在新的一年里能有一个健康向上的心态对待生活。

 

在5月7号以前，总以在过去的23年内从没丢过personal property而自豪的我终于明白了现实的残酷。除了相机幸免外，其他电子设备包括电脑，手机，Ipod和掌上电脑等物品被洗劫一空。事情发生了，但我心情却很平静，没有发呆，没有伤心，因为我知道事情发生了事不能挽回的，尽量避免这样的事再发生才是当务之急。在这件事的处理上自己很满意。

 

J1签证是自己对澳大利亚损失的补偿，在美国旅行的50天里，我学到了很多东西，开阔了视野，结交了新朋友。虽然我不清楚如果到澳大利亚那边会经历什么样的事，至少我对自己的美国之旅感到满意。毕竟是世界上唯一的超级大国，无论做什么事都会做到extreme，当然有些是不被提倡的。给我留下最深印象的是美国的国家公园，每一个都有自己的特点。如果跟中国的旅游胜地相比真是天壤之别，这些差别其实是不同的价值观造成的。用把环保放在第一位与把利润放在第一位的态度来管理国家公园，结果可想而知。

 

在申请四大前，自己并没有仔细的考虑过到底为什么要做会计师。但当自己拿到offer后，career choice 便有了明确的导向。其实自己最初的目的是要拥有一个终身可以使用的certificate. There is a great difference between being a student and waiting to start a career. I am so looking forward to it. 10月19号是四大申请的截止日，我18号才开始准备，19号晚上8点多才将申请表发到除了KPMG外的其他三家公司。由于大三成绩不好，以至于当时连能不能被interview都有怀疑，可当结果出来后却让我大跌眼镜。。。。。

 

总之2006年充满了刺激，可以说前半年很低落，后半年有了起色。不过无论发生什么事，都是对自己的考验和锻炼，能从中学到东西是最重要的，只有把过程搞清楚了才能为将来的发展铺路，从而达到自己的目标。

Time flies, I can still recall the forecoming excitment I had a few days before Christmas....calendar just turned to 27th a hour ago. There is something stirring my mind but I don't know how to express it.

 

Life will go back to normal, well, I should say it has never gone off the right track. I will go shopping with Henan and Betty tomorrow morning, the activity I haven't prepared for years. Hopefully I will get myself something not too fancy but nice looking. Definitely a suit.....

 

Watched An Inconvenient truth by Al Gore, a movie I expected to see for a long time, I have to say I love documentaries. Facts explained are terrifying to any human being on earth, which struke the fire in me as it's hard whenever I think about China's role in contributing to Global Warming......

 

 

一觉睡到下午一点半，虽然睡了那么久，但还是觉得困。。。。赫男今天做了丰盛的饭菜，很好吃，好久没有吃这样的饭菜了。同时自己也学了几手，如果将来能派上用场就好。

 

今天外面好像很冷，没出门，有Friday 在家真的很好，任何时候都不会觉得闷，也许自己以后也会考虑养宠物。

 

圣诞节马上要过去了，盼新年。。。。。。。。

Unlike the Christmas in previous years, it doesn't seem to snow for this one, a bit disappointed but who cares...:p

 

It's Christmas, a day without restrictions, anything you wished will come true, isn't that exciting? Thinking about the kids who are about to open their wrapped gifts under the Christmas trees, thinking about the parents who are eagering to spend this day with their beloved children, thinking about people who can enjoy themselves just by even thinking about Christmas, thinking about the nations which could cease fire because of Christmas........Hopes are endless, if you don't believe in fate, you need to have hope.....If there's a will, there is a hope.

 

I thought a lot about my life today, it's the fifth Christmas since I came to Ireland, the atmosphere didn't change, but did I change? I did, in a good way or a bad way? I will let people decide. However, people hold different perspectives towards the same thing, that's one of the reason to have many friends around who could offer opinions on how you did and what you are.......it's lucky to have friends like that,I would like to say thank you to those who helped me come this far on this special day.Thanks

 

I will keep update my space every day, the reason is simple. To have something remembered in the future, it might be too much though, well, I will see how it goes.

 

I miss mom and dad, I want to spend time with them, we need each other. That's called FAMILY: Father And Mother I Love You.....i am not sure if that's how family came from, it does make sense to me in a sensational way.

 

Christmas is special, it's for everyone, so please enjoy yourselves as the boundaries between people are suddenly disappeared, the only thing left there is Love. Merry Christmas to everyone....

....Santa Claus is coming to your door.....:p

Eventually I finished a 11-day shift and going back to normal for 2 days in Henan's place. I was invited to celebrate Christmas, most importantly,he cooks brilliant food...haha.

 

Apollo asked me to join him for dinner for tonight as well but I couldnt make it. Had huoguo,definitely a great meal for tomorrow,expecting.........

 

I am so happy to hear that Henan's been kept by Argos, his hard work paid off. Although I told him about the shortcut of being kept, it was him who paid the effort towards the whole thing. I shoudn't even think about getting credit for it. It's always good when you work with responsible people.

 

Probably will call friends for the whole night, I haven't talked to them for ages, I miss every one of them.

 

Before Argos closed,many people tried everything they could to squeez into the shop and grab whatever had left. They were so desparate, however, there was something to do with their poor time management so they would have no excuse to blame anyone.

 

........I will update tomorrow.

Only one day to go for Christmas, I am kinda excited,not only because of the dred work's going to pause for a while, also going to have a very good meal with friends...expecting....hehe

 

I was awaken by the exceptionally low temperature this morning. When I got out of the apartment, I realised that I was surrounded by frost, it was all over the place. I didn't say it was bad only because I had to work in the morning, it was just a bit unease over the fact of being so cold. I can't imagine what the weather's going to be when I go back to China in Feb,2007.

 

Thinking about the work load of the second semester makes me worried sometimes, as I have to do cope with the normal progress as well as trying hard to catch up the stuff left over from Michaelmas Term.

 

 

One of the toughest day ever but I survived somehow.

 

Might go and catch a movie next week some time.

 

.........

 

Nothing to write about today.....

 

Shenmi, thank you for your support. I will be the one whom you used to know when I go back in Feb.

Today's tempareture was ok in compare with yesterday's, at least it wasn't freezingly cold.

 

Trieste 5.4 is virtually lifeless, no one's here except me. Music is the only thing that clicks in my nights recently. I can't get used to it I have to say as I am not a lonely person.....Luckily,I will move to a friend's place for a week from tomorrow on....

 

Sami invited me to go to London for New Year, I so wanted to go however, recent financial position does require me to put in extra efforts while in holiday. In what way it can be taken as a positive motivation towards work? Do I have a choice? Well, it's hard to say, reason is simple, I don't wanna let anyone down so that I would be the one who take the most 'pain' towards the usual process of life...If it's worth the effort from my point of view, everything will work out fine here....:)

 

I ran out all the food I bought on Tuesday except two slices of bread, some coleslaw and two sausages....actually, I didn't buy anything Chinese on that day. Two pizzas, coleslaw, cucumber, bread and sausages. Didn't buy any fruits last week, had vitamins tablets instead. Mom probably will be emotional if she knows all this. What can you do when you are by yourself? I need someone to be with me I guess.

 

Tomorrow will be my fifth 12-hour shift, I am physically and mentally exhausted. There is something in my mind which drives me forward every time I was about to fall. It could be the sense of self-achievement or robotic instinct, whatever you call it. Everyone wants to be praised, me too, whenever a management member says 'well done....you are the best....it's so good to have you here while I am on shift........', I will regain my strength from my wrecked body. Is that what people live for? Whenever I work, it applies to me, it helps me to realise my goal....

 

Henan invited me to go to his place for Christmas, it's so nice of him. I have to make him cook something very very niceeeeey....:p

 

生活是自己创造的。每个人都会时常面临来自生活、工作和社会的各种各样的问题。我们的处世方法、工作态度、努力程度、思维方式和心态信念等等决定了我们一生的成败。不论干什么，我们都希望自己能够成功，都试图尽量避免失败或走弯路。

一个人最重要的是他的内心:
许多人缺少的不是美，而是自信的气质，记住：自信本身就是一种美。有了积极的心态就容易成功

不要忘了自己的身份:
事实上，当别人遭遇坎坷磨难时，我们根本帮不上什么忙，有时就靠某句简单的话去安慰一下。如果你找不到合适的话，就给对方一个痛哭的机会吧。

宽宏大量会使你的精神达到新的境界:
美国教育者威廉?菲尔说：“真正的快乐，不是依附外在的事物上。池塘是由内向外满溢的，你的快乐也是由内在思想和情 感中泉涌而出的。如果，你希望获得永恒的快乐，你必须培养你的思想，以有趣的思想和点子装满你的心，因为，用一个空虚的心灵寻找快乐，所找到的，也只是快 乐的替代品。”

你有对生命的主宰权:
许多时候，我们不是跌倒在自己的缺陷上，而是跌倒在自己的优势上，因为缺陷常常给我们以提醒，而优势却常常使我们忘乎所以。

让生命的激流荡清灵魂的浊物:
许多人之所以在生活中一事无成，最根本原因在于他们不知道自己到底要做什么。
在生活和工作中，明确自己的目标和方向是非常必要的。只有在知道你的目标是什么、你到底想做什么之后，你才能够达到自己的目的，你的梦想才会变成现实。

只会幻想的人没有真正的机会:
许多人完全知道要成功他们必须做什么，但他们迟迟不愿采取正确的行动。成功的秘密是这样的：不要只是想着采取行动，而是要“采取正确的行动！”


哪怕只有针尖般大的希望也不放弃:
在命运的门前，不妨多拿出一点耐心，哪怕多等一天、多等一个小时、多等一分钟，结果可能就会截然不同。


提出一个问题往往比解决一个问题更重要门:
人生的大门往往是没有钥匙的，在命运的关键时刻，人最需要的不是墨守成规的钥匙，而是一块砸碎障碍的石头！

充沛的活力取决于你的思想:
在任何一天、任何一个时候，你都将获得充沛的活力，这取决于你的思想，而不是外界因素。把工作当作自己最喜欢的事情。

人不是必须要成为另一种东西:
人生是一种自我经营过程。要经营就要讲运算，人生是离不开加减乘除的。
人在关键时刻，常要有勇气、认真和耐心，道路选准了，奋斗才会有应有的回报，人生的光环随之而来

There are only 5 days from Christmas, the most important and the most sensational festival for the western society....it is also the most painful period of every year for me, probably for other Chinese as well. I felt sad about being away from my parents for the first Chinese New Year that I was unable to spend with them after I came abroad. I used to picture myself sitting at the dinning table with parents at home with loads of nice food and fine wine... It's bitter for me to see everyone's going home for Christmas, I can't stop thinking of going back for Chinese New Year some day...

 

I won't feel too guilty for being away from home to be sad for years I guess, as I will not be touched by the familiar atmosphere copied during childhood, also, there is not too many Chinese around,people tend to work more so they could ease the 'homesickness' from thinking about it.

 

I am not envy people who enjoy Christmas, I understand how people feel about it as I used to be the same. I have to tell myself that it's common for people to feel something abnormal if everyone else is taking the joy out of something without taking certain individual into account such as us.... It's hard for them to understand..probably will never figure it out by themselves....

 

I am not being geeky to write it down, I wanna let myself remember how I felt about it every year after 20 years time. I am talking about a particular moment of sadness towards the general happiness.

 

Thanks for the Christmas which gives me the opportunity to learn how to survive without parents around in an extreme way, I feel lucky that I can take it in this way rather than criticising western culture irrationally...

 

I wish everyone a very happy Christmas......:)

      1、一只火鸡和一头牛闲聊，火鸡说：我希望能飞到树顶，可我没有勇气。牛说：为什么不吃一点我的牛粪呢，他们很有营养。火鸡吃了一点牛粪，发现它确实给了它足够的力量飞到第一根树枝，第二天，火鸡又吃了更多的牛粪，飞到第二根树枝，两个星期后，火鸡骄傲的飞到了树顶，但不久，一个农夫看到了它，迅速的把它从树上射了下来。
　　生存之道1：牛屎运让你达到顶峰，但不能让你留在那里。

　　2、乌鸦站在树上，整天无所事事，兔子看见乌鸦，就问：我能像你一样，整天什么事都不用干吗？乌鸦说：当然，有什么不可以呢？于是，兔子在树下的空地上开始休息，忽然，一只狐狸出现了，它跳起来抓住兔子，把它吞了下去。
　　生存之道2：如果你想站着什么事都不做，那你必须站的很高，非常高。

　　3、一只小鸟飞到南方去过冬。天很冷，小鸟几乎冻僵了。于是，飞到一大块空地上，一头牛经过那儿，拉了一堆牛粪在小鸟的身上，冻僵的小鸟躺在粪堆里，觉得很温暖，渐渐苏醒过来，它温暖而舒服的躺着，不久唱起歌来，一只路过的野猫听到声音，走过去看个究竟，循着声音，野猫很快发现了躺在粪堆里的小鸟，把它拽出来吃掉了。
　　生存之道3：不是每个往你身上拉大粪的人都是你的敌人。也不是每个把你从粪堆里拉出来的人都是你的朋友，还有，当你躺在粪堆里时，最好把你的嘴闭上。 

　　4、从前，有两个饥饿的人得到了一位长者的恩赐：一根鱼竿和一篓鲜活硕大的鱼。其中，一个人要了一篓鱼，另一个人要了一根鱼竿，于是他们分道扬镳了。得到鱼的人原地就用干柴搭起篝火煮起了鱼，他狼吞虎咽，还没有品出鲜鱼的肉香，转瞬间，连鱼带汤就被他吃了个精光，不久，他便饿死在空空的鱼篓旁。另一个人则提着鱼竿继续忍饥挨饿，一步步艰难地向海边走去，可当他已经看到不远处那片蔚蓝色的海洋时，他浑身的最后一点力气也使完了，他也只能眼巴巴地带着无尽的遗憾撒手人间。
　　又有两个饥饿的人，他们同样得到了长者恩赐的一根鱼竿和一篓鱼。只是他们并没有各奔东西，而是商定共同去找寻大海，他俩每次只煮一条鱼，他们经过遥远的跋涉，来到了海边，从此，两人开始了捕鱼为生的日子，几年后，他们盖起了房子，有了各自的家庭、子女，有了自己建造的渔船，过上了幸福安康的生活。
　　生存之道4：一个人只顾眼前的利益，得到的终将是短暂的欢愉；一个人目标高远，但也要面对现实的生活。只有把理想和现实有机结合起来，才有可能成为一个成功之人。有时候，一个简单的道理，却足以给人意味深长的生命启示。

　　5、孔子的一位学生在煮粥时，发现有肮脏的东西掉进锅里去了。他连忙用汤匙把
它捞起来，正想把它倒掉时，忽然想到，一粥一饭都来之不易啊。于是便把它吃了。/刚巧孔子走进厨房，以为他在偷食，便教训了那位负责煮食的同学。经过解释，大家才恍然大悟。孔子很感慨的说：“我亲眼看见的事情也不确实，何况是道听途听呢？”
　　生存之道5：推销生意是一种组织性质的生意，因为人多，人事问题也多。我们不时听到是非难辨的话，如某公司攻击另一间公司，如是者往往令人混淆是非，影响信心。因此找出事情的真相，不是轻易相信谣言，辛辛苦苦建立的事业才不会毁于一旦。

　　6、有位秀才第三次进京赶考，住在一个经常住的店里。考试前两天他做了三个梦，第一个梦是梦到自己在墙上种白菜，第二个梦是下雨天，他戴了斗笠还打伞，第三个梦是梦到跟心爱的表妹脱光了衣服躺在一起，但是背靠着背。
　　这三个梦似乎有些深意，秀才第二天就赶紧去找算命的解梦。算命的一听，连拍大腿说：“你还是回家吧。你想想，高墙上种菜不是白费劲吗？戴斗笠打雨伞不是多此一举吗？跟表妹都脱光了躺在一张床上了，却背靠背，不是没戏吗？”
　　秀才一听，心灰意冷，回店收拾包袱准备回家。店老板非常奇怪，问：“不是明天才考试吗，今天你怎么就回乡了？”秀才如此这般说了一番，店老板乐了：“哟，我也会解梦的。我倒觉得，你这次一定要留下来。你想想，墙上种菜不是高种吗？戴斗笠打伞不是说明你这次有备无患吗？跟你表妹脱光了背靠靠躺在床上，不是说明你翻身的时候就要到了吗？”
　　秀才一听，更有道理，于是精神振奋地参加考试，居然中了个探花。
　　生存之道6：积极的人，象太阳，照到哪里哪里亮，消极的人，象月亮，初一十五不一样。想法决定我们的生活，有什么样的想法，就有什么样的未来。

　　7、有一天动物园管理员们发现袋鼠从笼子里跑出来了，于是开会讨论，一致认为是笼子的高度过低。所以它们决定将笼子的高度由原来的十公尺加高到二十公尺。结果第二天他们发现袋鼠还是跑到外面来，所以他们又决定再将高度加高到三十公尺。
　　没想到隔天居然又看到袋鼠全跑到外面，于是管理员们大为紧张，决定一不做二不休，将笼子的高度加高到一百公尺。
　　一天长颈鹿和几只袋鼠们在闲聊，“你们看，这些人会不会再继续加高你们的笼子？”长颈鹿问。
　　“很难说。”袋鼠说∶“如果他们再继续忘记关门的话！”
　　生存之道7：其实很多人都是这样,只知道有问题,却不能抓住问题的核心和根基。

　　8、在某个小村落，下了一场非常大的雨，洪水开始淹没全村，一位神父在教堂里祈祷，眼看洪水已经淹到他跪着的膝盖了。一个救生员驾着舢板来到教堂，跟神父说：“神父，赶快上来吧！不然洪水会把你淹死的！”神父说：“不！我深信上帝会来救我的，你先去救别人好了。”
　　过了不久，洪水已经淹过神父的胸口了，神父只好勉强站在祭坛上。这时，又有一个警察开着快艇过来，跟神父说：“神父，快上来，不然你真的会被淹死的！”神父说：“不，我要守住我的教堂，我相信上帝一定会来救我的。你还是先去救别人好了。”
　　又过了一会，洪水已经把整个教堂淹没了，神父只好紧紧抓住教堂顶端的十字架。一架直升飞机缓缓的飞过来，飞行员丢下了绳梯之后大叫：“神父，快上来，这是最后的机会了，我们可不愿意见到你被洪水淹死！！”神父还是意志坚定的说：“不，我要守住我的教堂！上帝一定会来救我的。你还是先去救别人好了。上帝会与我共在的！！”
　　洪水滚滚而来，固执的神父终于被淹死了……神父上了天堂，见到上帝后很生气的质问：“主啊，我终生奉献自己，战战兢兢的侍奉您，为什么你不肯救我！”上帝说：“我怎么不肯救你？第一次，我派了舢板来救你，你不要，我以为你担心舢板危险；第二次，我又派一只快艇去，你还是不要；第二次，我以国宾的礼仪待你，再派一架直升飞机来救你，结果你还是不愿意接受。所以，我以为你急着想要回到我的身边来，可以好好陪我。”
　　生存之道8：其实，生命中太多的障碍，皆是由于过度的固执与愚昧的无知所造成。在别人伸出援手之际，别忘了，惟有我们自己也愿意伸出手来，人家才能帮得上忙的！！！

　　9、五岁的汉克和爸爸妈妈哥哥一起到森林干活，突然间下起雨来，可是他们只带了一块雨披。爸爸将雨披给了妈妈，妈妈给了哥哥，哥哥又给了汉克。汉克问道：“为什么爸爸给了妈妈，妈妈给了哥哥，哥哥又给了我呢？”爸爸回答道：“因为爸爸比妈妈强大，妈妈比哥哥强大，哥哥又比你强大呀。我们都会保护比较弱小的人。汉克左右看了看，跑过去将雨披撑开来挡在了一朵风雨中飘摇的娇弱小花上面。
　　生存之道9：真正的强者不一定是多有力，或者多有钱，而是他对别人多有帮助。责任可以让我们将事做完整，爱可以让我们将事情做好。

Sami and his friends went to Barcode for fun lasnit. Didn't come home at all due to the fact of forgetting where to go after'a few pints' I guess....anyway,Richel is a nice girl appearently as she let him stay over night. I hope nothing funny happened afterwards...

 

Called mom last night, didn't intend to mention what happened two days ago,felt myself becoming stronger as time goes by,however,it was a sign of immature if I think about it that way in the first place. I like myself to be that way so I can avoid from being recognised as an real 'Chinese adult'....haven't booked flight ticket for Chinese New Year yet, thinking about it can make me happy since it's been 5 years now from last time I spent that day with parents. I am not complaining as at least I get a chance to look forward to going back for it,how many people dare not even think of it? I should feel lucky already... I am so look forward to going back however I know that my parents wish to see me around every day....They sacrificed too much for me, I hope sending me abroad would be the last painful decision they had to make. I knew it somehow from that time on I would be the sailor of my own vessel......

 

I broke the record for insurance selling today, 52 units a day can be the best personal daily sale record in both the UK and Ireland for a very very long time unless I push myself against it in the upcoming week. Body was tortured tremendously due to the dedicative hard work, for a moment,I even thought about going to bed early every day, but habit will be restored very quickly way before I put it into practice....

 

Air Wick?what is it? Lavender spray which was the most effective weapon again Sami's posion gas emitted from the foundation of his torso...

 

There are some euro coins on my desk....whenever I looking at them the some question emerges: Why did I come to Ireland? How did I go this far? How much effort did I put in to struggle for survival?.......Luckily,I don't need to answer any of them, the answers are in people's eyes. Do I need to care about what people think about me? The answer is DO I LOOK LIKE I CARE?

 

Everyday is a new page in my life, it doesn't matter what I write down. I only care about one thing, that is being happy for both the beginning and end of every chapter would be the best thing to do for getting over every hurtle in my life...outcome is important.Do you agree? I don't really agree. 

元旦快到了,别忘了给孩子们讲讲很久很久很久以前的事：

那时候天还是蓝的，水也是绿的，庄稼是长在地里的，猪肉是可以放心吃的，耗子还是怕猫的，结婚是先谈恋爱的，理发店是只管理发的，药是可以治病的，医生是救死扶伤的，拍电影是不需要陪导演睡觉的，照相是要穿衣服的，欠钱是要还的，孩子的爸爸是明确的，学校是不图挣钱的，白痴是不能当教授的，卖狗肉是不能挂羊头的，结婚了是不能泡MM的，买东西是要付钱的，老师是为人师表的，警察是为人民服务的，税收是造福人民的，县官是不欺压百姓的，农民是能吃上饭的，说真话是不会受惩罚的，全国各地人民是不会互相歧视的，见义勇为是要受奖励的，黑社会骨干是不会成为人大代表的，省市领导是不去澳门赌博的，看完不转发出去是要被打屁股的。

 

 

大千世界，芸芸众生，日出而作，日落而息。生息繁衍，轮回不息。人活在世，到底是为什么？这是长久以来经常在我脑海中冒出来的一个问题。仁者见仁，智者见智，对于这个问题不同的人会有不同的答案。有人说：人生在世，吃喝玩乐。固然，吃喝玩乐是人得以生存并继续生存下去的动力和源泉。然而除此之外呢？建功立业，名垂青史？。。。记得很早以前有人说过：人吃饭是为了活着，人活着不是为了吃饭。那就又回到了物质与精神的问题上来了，对于此古人和当代的人们探讨的已经很多了，仓廪粗而知礼节等等。我在此要说的，不是物质与精神孰轻孰重，也不是到底要树立怎样的一个人生观的问题，我想说的是，人在这个世界上，除了享受快乐之外，其实也要受很多的苦，这就是人生八苦。

人生八苦：生苦，老苦，病苦，死苦，爱别离苦，怨憎会苦，求不得苦，五蕴炽盛苦。此八苦佛经有云，非本人自撰也。有人说人生有那么多的快乐，你不去说，却挑一些让人沉重的痛苦来说，你是不是消极遁世啊？不是的，痛苦本来就和快乐同时存在，我们不能因为害怕痛苦而忽视它的存在。就像人身上的痛感神经一样，它是人类保护自己的一件法宝，当身体受到伤害时，它会用疼痛提醒你采取保护措施，使身体免受进一步的伤害。试想像如果你因为害怕疼痛而去除了痛感神经，那将会是怎样的一个结果？实际上痛苦和快乐是相对的，经历过痛苦的人才知道快乐的珍重，只会享受快乐的人却经受不起痛苦的打击。所以面对痛苦，才会更好的享受快乐。

先说生苦，就是人在出生的时候要承受巨大的苦楚。母亲十月怀胎，历尽艰辛，一朝分娩时，种种痛苦，不用历数，做过母亲的人都经历过。那么婴儿呢？婴儿在母亲体内的羊水中生活了八九个月，娇嫩的皮肤一旦接触到空气，会非常的痛楚，因为婴儿没有记忆，所以人类至今无以得知他的痛楚，但佛经上对之却是有所记载的。所以人们经常会疑惑不解，婴儿为什么一出生就会哭，却不会笑呢？这也是一个很难解释的问题。难道这预示着人生来就是为受苦的吗？

老苦是每一个人都不得不面对的一个痛苦。老苦是相对于青春的快乐而言的，人在青春乃至壮年时期，朝气蓬勃，精力充沛，反应敏捷，是人一生中的黄金时间，也是人生最快乐的阶段。一旦步入中老年，体力下降，皮肤松弛，思维变得迟缓，美丽的变得丑陋，健壮的变得病弱，各种病痛也随之而来，常有心有余而力不足之感，常感叹青春易逝。古往今来，人类为了挽留青春不知付出了多少努力，帝王将相，为求不老，便求天下不老之术，访名师练仙丹，吃遍天下珍馐，最终也难免黄土一抔。再看当代人类，化妆成为生活中不可或缺的一部分，无非也是为了挽留青春，然而随着岁月的流逝，每一个人都会变老，无论你是富甲天下，无论你是俊男美女，可见老苦对于人类是多么的残酷。

病苦，是每一个生过病或亲属生过病的人都深有体会的。得病是身不由己的事情，一旦身染疾患，痛苦只有自知，即就是最亲近的人，也不能代受。人类文明在不断的进步，病魔却并没有因为科技的进步而得以遏制，却反而越来越猖獗，AIDS，肝炎，癌症，心血管。。。人类可以实现神话中的嫦娥奔月，导弹精确制导，指哪打哪，然而面对病魔，却显得那么苍白无力。。。

死苦是所有苦中的终结者，也是最为人类所忌讳谈及的，人人希望长生，没人希望死亡，然而却没有人可以长生不老。

生老病死此四苦，无人可以避免，人生之四大苦也！

爱别离苦，所爱的人要和你分离，苦不苦？所爱的人，爱人，家人，朋友。爱人相依，情意缠绵，家人相聚，其乐融融，朋友相会，推心置腹。一旦离别，撕心裂肺，一日别如隔三秋，恨不身生双翅，飞赴君身旁，离别苦日长，竟夜起相思。“碧云天，黄花地，西风紧。北雁南飞。晓来谁染霜林醉？总是离人泪。”离别苦也是自古以来最富诗意之苦，人类用诗，歌，用感情的升华来倾诉离别之苦。

求不得苦，当然是重苦当中的枢机。如果所求随愿，也就不会有其它之苦了。所谓心想事成，万事如意，只不过是人们的良好祝愿罢了。难怪有人叹曰：人生之不如意事，十分之八九。人有感情则会有各种欲望和愿望，但并不是所欲的和所愿的都会得到满足，就是求不得苦。欲壑难填也是对人类欲望难以满足的最好注解。

怨憎会苦，喜欢的人见不到，不喜欢的人却总在身边，你快乐吗？

五韵炽盛苦，色，受，想，行，识为五蕴， 五蕴炽盛实为其余七苦的根源。人非草木，孰能无情？因有情而生五蕴，因五蕴而生贪欲，因贪欲而在欲海中随波逐流不能自持，不得不忍受各种煎熬。
人活在这个世界上要承受这么多苦，怎样才可以少受或不受苦呢？看开，放下，随缘，自在，自在即快乐，快乐即无苦。

I didn't mean to scare anyone here, I didn't intend to write anything but the other side of me took control so I would have no choice but to write it down here. Message for all my friends: Please don't tell my parents about it in any way, as I will never let them know it.Thanks.

 

It was all fine before 8:55pm on 13th,December,2006...I did pretty much everything I planned for today,shopped for trousers, got hair cut, did laundry and had a ok dinner....I was sitting at my desk listening to music and browsing the internet.All of a sudden,I heard something weird 'Bang...Bang,Bang,Bang,Bang,Bang'. The first thing came up in mind was that someone was playing fireworks which was loud enough to hear even I had my music on, then I heard a car was accelerating right after it. I still doubted about something badly had happened. I opened my window and pulled up my blind as I am living on the 5th floor so my sight was blocked by the balcony. But I can hear someone screaming down there and the residence in the building infront of us were on their balcony at that time. So I was certain that what I heard was gun shots and someone got shot at least 5 times.

 

Sami came and we went down to girls' flat for a closer look, Aiofa and Kate were crying and we squeezed at the window to see what happened exactly. Then I saw a terrifying scene that a man at the age of 30-40s got shot and lying on the ground, there was a pool of blood underneath his lifeless body. It actually happened right outside MACE, appearently he was shot right after he came out of the shop. Within two minutes, several Gardi cars pulled over, ambulances and fire brigade came,though I had no idea about what the latter crowd doing here. The atmosphere was even tenser than day time. People started gathering but they were cordered outside the crime scene. Among the crowds, number of Nxxxers seem to be overwhelming, none of them were doing any good to the situation of crime scene.The body was taken to Marter Hospital before the forensic detectives came. Right now, there are still more than two dozen police officers down there gathering evidence.... I did think of going to Mace to buy something, it was just a click of thought in my mind. A shocked girl called police with her phone first who was screaming and almost collapsed on the ground when she saw the killing. I couldn't even picture myself into a situation like that, so it's hard to imagine how scary it was from her point of view. It might hunt her for the rest of her life......how sad that is! Poor girl...

 

The most shocking scene I saw since I came to Ireland,and I couldn't believe the fact that it happened outside our door. Nowhere is safe,you will never know what it is going to happen in the next second. Sometimes we have to face certain situations like that no matter what. I thought IFSC area is one of the safest places to stay in Dublin but it's been proven I was wrong. What can I do? Never going to MACE again or move to some other places?I will have to learn how to accept everything I guess.

 

It was later confirmed that the guy was shot 3 times in the head and 3 times on his body...there's no way he could survive from 6 gun shots.

最近，有调查发现，公众对当代大学生的评价很不理想。绝大多数调查对象认为大学生目前的主要问题是“精神萎靡不振”，认为大学生“学习态度非常好”的比例只有8.5%。“大学生在公众中的形像已经跌到20年的最低点”是这项调查得出的结论。这就隐含着以下危机。

　　(一)青年理想危机。大学生形象扭曲背后是大学生理想追求的危机，由于当前大学生就业市场的不规范，以及强大的竞争压力，导致了大学生对社会的一些畸形认识，并导致个人追求的畸形，傍富、奢侈等现象的出现，无不是他们追求危机的折射。大学生追求危机是可怕的，因为大学生追求的危机直接影响到一代青年人的追求趋势。 

　　(二)民族创新危机。大学生形象扭曲的直接恶果就是我们的民族创新危机，大学生应该是民族创新的重要组成部分，他们应该朝气蓬勃，应该激昂向上，然而，现在许多大学生却极端自私，精神萎靡，看破红尘。我们民族创新的后备力量如此，是让人担心的。

　　(三)教育改革危机。大学生形象扭曲的背后是巨大的教育改革危机，当前教育改革实在不能说成功，尤其大学教育，盲目扩招，学费飞涨，论文造假，豪华教育，大学生在这样的氛围下学习，能有好熏陶？教育改革危机，垮掉的不仅是一代，而是几代。教育改革危机应该引起我们的警惕了。

　　(四)社会精神危机。大学生形象的核心是社会精神的凝聚，大学生形象扭曲暗含的是社会精神的危机，虽然这些年在张扬社会主导精神上没有丝毫放松，但是，这种精神却实在没有真正进入到公民的心中，尤其没有进入到大学生心中。试问大学生心灵深处，有多少真正事业第一，国家责任第一，公民义务第一的？社会精神是社会繁荣的基础，社会精神危机的后果不敢想象。

　　(五)家庭未来危机。一方面，大学生要组成家庭，一方面家庭要把孩子培养成大学生，而大学生的形象扭曲，无疑给大学生家庭带来了迷惘，给中国诸多家庭带来了迷惘，这种迷惘影响的是家庭文化的健康，让人担忧。

　　(六)文化时尚危机。大学生是时尚的标志，大学生形象扭曲实际上是文化时尚的危机，不客气的说，现在的文化时尚实际上处于一片混乱，贵族电影层出不穷，娱乐电视不厌其烦，低劣书籍充斥市场，网络文化更是鱼目混珠。大千世界，大千现象，本来正常，但是崇尚奢侈，崇尚豪华，崇尚私欲，崇尚怪诞就不正常了。

　　(七)社会公德危机。其实，大学生形象扭曲和我们当前的社会公德危机不无关系，官员腐败，公民冷漠，丑陋现象泛滥，大学生在一个公德失落的环境中，他怎能独善其身？大学生形象扭曲实在是社会公德水平降低的恶果。

　　(八)知识力量危机。大学生是公众知识的象征，大学生形象扭曲实际上就是知识形象的扭曲，这必然导致知识力量危机，知识就是力量这种信念如果产生危机，其危害难以估量。初中辍学，职业高中不景气，大学生就业艰难等诸多现象已经暴露出人们对知识的信任危机。

　　(九)社会秩序危机。我们不得不承认，大学生应该是社会发展的中坚力量，如果这个中坚力量充实到阳光队伍中，那么社会发展必然更阳光，如果充实到黑暗队伍中，那后果难以想象。然而，大学生形象的扭曲实际上是让大学生难以走向阳光，这难道不让人忧心吗？

　　(十)明天发展危机。今天，我们发展的不错，明天我们的发展靠谁，靠我们以新一代大学生为主流的青年来发展，大学生形象扭曲，我们明天的发展堪忧啊！

　　以上论述，或许偏激，但现象必须引起我们的警惕，大学生形象危机对一个国家，一个民族是可怕的。